Looking at the Bible

I was one of the faithful, i had a relationship with God, i believed the bible story.
I liked having God in my life, there was always someone to talk to; Jesus, on the other hand, i could never really talk to him. In some ways it was like my relationship with my little, gay half-brother H. I feel that H. resents me like i
resent Jesus for being the perfect son.

For me to have stayed faithful, would have been very simple.

I was asked to do one thing: to have faith in God, and i had no problem with that. Then i studied the bible; i haven't read the whole bible, i've read enough, been lectured about the rest. What i did was study this book called The Holy Bible.

To have kept my belief in God all i would have needed to hear was: God is good,
He created everything; think about anything, anything at all, He created it. That's all it would have taken, i would have worshiped God forever.

But that's not what happened.

He came out with a book, and all i had to do was really look at this book to know that God was a fictional character along with his antagonist, Satan; all made up by human imagination over the years and eventually written down by scholars. There is human wisdom in this book, but it is wisdom that had been around before. God did not all the sudden give us the idea that murder was wrong. People did think before the bible; there were philosophers around with some pretty good ideas.
This book did have one thing that was fairly new: it's insistance that we worship Him and only Him; it really hammers home that point, the first two commandments is just about that: it really does not want you to shop around.

I think the Roman emperor Constantine recognized the fragility of early Christianity, hence the first council of Nicea in 325 A.D. Constantine saw
Christianity coming apart at the seams because it could not settle the dispute over whether Jesus was God or the son of God, the most basic of dogmas; if your religion doesn't know that, something is not right. He got a bunch of Bishops together in Nicea and he ordered them to just pick one and go with it! let's get our story straight and stick with it. And that's how Chritianity got it's big break and became the religion it is today. Constantine saw the value of the influence that religion has over people; an influence powerful enough that people are willing to die for their religion. This comes in handy to start wars.